Olivia Jensen #3
Today, I am 149lbs even though my doctor says my ideal weight is 125lbs for my height. I’ve spent many, many years trying to lose weight and trying to whittle my waist down to the perfect hourglass shape…but I was never satisfied with myself.
I took this picture the other day and I loved it, but I was afraid to post it on my page at first because I was so self-conscious.The more I looked at it, the more flaws I could see. You can see the little fat pouch on my stomach that I’ve tried so hard to get rid of. My arms are chubby. My thighs are so thick and blurred together that it looks like I have one giant thigh. My hair is frizzy and doesn’t quite lay right over my shoulder. The only positive thing I noticed about this picture was that my chubby arm blocked out the back fat that was poking out of my backless dress.
But when this picture did go up, I got so many compliments. I usually only post face photos, but after I put this picture up, I had so many compliments about how gorgeous, beautiful, and “thick” I was. I felt good about myself. I was relieved that they didn’t see all the little flaws that I saw in myself. They just…thought I was beautiful.
There are a lot of emotional scars that still need to be healed, but I think that I’m finally ready to stop hating my body and start accepting it as it is.
Peter Riverstone - Casanova Ulterieur (pgs 2 & 7)